Upon the Worry

I have decided to write another letter to Elizabeth explaining what has happen with Lydia and Wickham. I believe she deserves to know seeing as she once had an attraction to Wickham herself. I could not wait until she wrote back to tell her for she may not write back for a good period of time. I am slowly getting over Bingley although the urge to get hooked on him again has arose with Lydia running away with her love. I wonder what he is doing or if he has even found another woman to love.

Missing

Today I was awaken by the alarming sound of a carriage rushing out of my front driveway. I rushed to the window to see that it was my father and it looked as though he was in a big rush to get away. Later on I found out that he was on his way to find Lydia. Seeing as no one has heard from her in a while and Lydia left a note to Mrs. Forster saying that she has gone away with Wickham. My only concern is that I hope she is okay and that my father will be able to find her and bring her home safe. I would not be surprised if she even came home married.

Letter to Lizzy

Today I have designated to writing to Elizabeth. I know that she probably will not receive them for a while seeing as she is away on her travels. In this letter I have explained to her a few of the events of Lydia's adventures. Upon Lydia's stay with Colonel Forster she has run in to Wickham. It seems as though they have become attracted to one another. It will be interesting to see how this turns out.

Passing Time

Since Elizabeth and Lydia have left I have been trying to find ways of passing time until they some home. They have been gone for so long now I can barley wait until their arrival at home. In the mean time i have been making a few trips down town hoping to find some sort of entertainment. Although I have only been somewhat successful. Also I have been spending quite sometime with my sisters and my mother, fixing things around the house and conversing with my father.

Gone Again

I miss Elizabeth dearly, for she has left home yet again with the Gardiners. I have written to her but it seems as if she won't get it for a while because she is on the move a lot. With her gone I have been trying extremely hard to keep myself busy and not think about Mr. Bingley. Which is a lot harder now with Elizabeth gone seeing as I am spending much time with my mother and all she wants is for her daughters to get married. I find myself eagerly waiting for Elizabeth to return home again.

Elizabeth Tells "All"

Elizabeth has finally brought up what I have been waiting to hear the whole time I have been re-untied with her. All the information that she has shared with me about Mr. Wickham has failed to surprise me. I believe that Elizabeth and I should share with news with the other girls and people in town so that they can watch out for this man. Also Lydia has been invited to stay with Colonel Forster. This is such exciting news, she finally gets to go on a great adventure and share all about it when she returns home.

Suprises

I have finally meet up with Elizabeth and we are now heading home. I am a bit surprised that Elizabeth has not said anything to me yet about Mr. Darcy or her trip. Oh well I am sure she is just waiting for the right time. Meanwhile it was nice of Catherine and Lydia to meet up with us. It has been so nice to spend some time with them and catch up on all the missed events. However it is sad that Catherine and Lydia are having such low emotions on the particular subject of marriage or men. What i can gather from their information is that the men in which they are interested are leaving soon, which leads me to wonder about Mr.Bingley. 

Heading Home

Today is the day that get to start my adventure home. I am over flowing with excitement because I get to see Elizabeth. It seems as if it has been forever. I am exited to hear all of her new stories and hear about whether she talked to Mr. Darcy or not. Oh I just think of all the possible things that could have happened which makes it unbearable to wait to see her.

Jane's attempted distractions

Aside from all my emotions due to Mr. Bingley, I have been keeping quite busy. I made some occasional trips to visit other family such as aunts and uncles. I have also made a few trips to the down town area that were satisfied with some wonderful sites. I simply can not wait until Elizabeth returns home so I can show her some of my new discoveries. It seems as if she has been gone for so long. It will be a great event for the whole family when she comes home.

Mr. Bingley Mr. Bingley

I have tried to push the thoughts of Mr. Bingley away. Trying hard to convince myself of never having feeling toward him. Even though its's hard, there is sure to be enough distraction around here to somewhat succeed. I think a considerable amount as I write to Elizabeth. I think mostly of asking her what to do about him.

Life of Jane as we know it

I think about Elizabeth all the time. It concerns me that she is on her own with Charlotte and Mr. Collins. The happiness of marriage can depress anyone that has not experienced the simple liking of another being. For me it has made me depressed as the one I truly love is not coming back to my life here. As it still concerns me not knowing how Elizabeth is really doing.

Reflections of Jane

As I sit here in my lone some, all I can think about is what I did wrong toward Mr. Bingley. As to how I acted or how my physical being drew him away. What I thought was an attraction between us was really nothing. Or maybe there was an attraction but it drew him away. What ever it was it turned into pain, besides what it could have been - marriage.